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“I will serve my Guru. In this world, I will be a slave to nobody, work under nobody. Money and status mean nothing to me.” ~ T.Krishnamacharya

 

Life is my Guru.  My students are my Guru.  My wife is my Guru.  Happiness, joy, pain, hardship, death, sex, nature, music, and everything else that inspires me to feel… these things are my Guru.  I am simply a sum of the ripples that I have created.   The only Guru I refuse is that of fear.   I refuse to be lessened by fear.   I always have.  I will face both joy and tragedy with the same open mind and learn to hold them both dear.    Tragedy has the potential to allow us great leaps forward in our consciousness, however, fear can rob us of any of this invaluable information.  

I say all this for many reasons.  One- to confirm it to myself as I often do, because this is at the core of who and what I am.  Two- because I see so many of my fellow students and teachers doing the work, Sadhna.  Improving themselves and their environment.  Finding beauty in all that surrounds them.  

BUT, I also say this because I ran into a fellow teacher today who reminded me that fear is out there; fear that creates complacency, comfortability, and creates change for the worse.  Money is part of trying to sate the fear.  Status is part of trying to sate the fear.  It is sad to see folks in the yoga realm that get blinded by money and status.  They lose what it is that brought them to it and I can only hope they regain it.  It is a reminder for me to be aware of those pitfalls that exist.   

Which is why I say that the above quote cant say it any better!  It took me a couple paragraphs to get it done!

Hoping to start a bit if a series here concerning teaching yoga.  For me, teaching yoga IS a very integral part of my yoga practice as well, so there are a lot of topics to possibly cover.  

This first one is a huge one involving a teachers intention with regards to what they are hoping to create for their students and how that can effect physically adjusting them as well.  This is a somewhat controversial subject as well as it brings up the dark secret of students getting injured by teachers, a topic that is one of my highest priorities to battle against.  It makes me both ired and physically ill when I hear of students being injured.  Granted there are a couple of ways to find oneself injured and two of them are all ego.  1. Student Ego- “I need to push hard even if I know intrinsically that it is a bad idea.  2. Teacher Ego- “Let me show you how far I can put you into an asana.  3. Asana is a physical approach to yoga practice and things sometimes just happen.

Before we crack into that subject I want to preface it by talking about intention, as intention of the teacher is preventative medicine for those first two ego situations.  When I began learning Thai Massage one of the first things I was taught was to take 30 seconds to a minute and briefly set my intentions.  Something to the effect of, ” I am simply a conduit of this knowledge with the addition of my own personal experiences.  I am here to make this person healthier and happier and not to prove how good I am at this or to touch them for any ulterior motive.  Let the history, knowledge, and energy flow through me and not simply from me.”  By setting this intention before dealing with any student or client, I am trying to clear the way for patience, awareness, and complete compassion for their needs.  ***Teaching is not about you.***   Your personality and creativity may effect your popularity of course, but do not fall into the ego trap mentioned in almost every old yoga text.  In teaching yoga I also am constantly aware and thoughtful both getting my ego out of the way, but also setting an intention for what I want my students to receive.  ”No matter what the reason is that you have stepped into my class, I simply want you to leave feeling happier and healthier.”  

Here we get into a bit of controversy as to us Ashtanga teachers.   I have no problem “bucking the system”  to get the best results and firmly believe that that is the point of yoga.  What can we do together to have the best results.  I have not been to Mysore and have no wish to go there, at all.  There are things that are simply being taught improperly (in my opinion) by many teachers simply because it is “traditional” or its what the powers that be say is right.  Well, if tradition trumps logic and compassion than we might as well head back to the Dark Ages of human treatment.  I only mention the above as I have had teachers reprimand me for teaching in manners that they didn’t believe were traditional.  Now I certainly disagree with the way some teachers are approaching the teaching of yoga, but it is not for me to confront them in the least UNLESS… they are injuring students due to their methodology.  Oddly enough the teachers that have been offended enough to tell me to be more “traditional” have all injured students, some of which have had to have surgery.  Personally, if I find that I have EVER injured someone by pushing and pulling on them, I would reconsider my job.  Often teachers never get feedback as students are reticent to confront them.  In fact the only time I personally confronted a teacher who assisted me so hard in a posture to give me a life long knee injury, I was told that it was my fault because “you men, you push too hard.”  Geeze, I wonder if said teachers assist was from a place of compassion or ego?  This is obviously a subject I get my dander up about, and rightfully so I believe.  Can anyone put a price on giving a student a life long injury?  If you are a student who has been injured, you need to let a teacher know so history does not repeat itself .  Most likely the instructor will be broken hearted and do whatever it takes to help you out.  Two side notes here… 1. I have actually heard of instructors telling students to go until it hurts and then push a bit further.  If you hear this run away fast as you are no longer learning yoga or teaching yoga.  2. I have also had a student have a visiting instructor assist them by pushing down hard on their thighs in Baddha Konasana.  Student to instructor; ” I am uncomfortable with that assist and it is hurting me.”  Certified Ashtanga Instructor to student: “Its ok.  You need to work through the pain to break through.  I had to go through the same process.”  Student to me later on;  ”I need to take time off for a while as both my knees are really hurting and I cannot practice now.” Seriously?  What is wrong with some of you?  (author steps away to drink some water and breathe deeply)

 

So as far as assisting goes from a teaching perspective,  come back to the concept of intention;  ”What is the purpose behind this physical adjustment?”  After much thought and observation I have come to the realization…

1.There are two types of assists. 

A. Feel good assists.  The act of touching a student to make something simply feel better.  A massage-like assist best done by those with solid massage and anatomy knowledge.

B. Awareness assists.  The act of touching a student to impart knowledge to them concerning what is a better anatomical approach to the asana they are attempting.

*There is a lot more here to be said but I have simplified the above quite a bit.*

I find that assisting someone aggressively, i.e. pushing on them with a lot of weight, forcing their body somewhere it cannot go,  forcing binding, pressing downward on limbs, twisting them further etc, are all assisting for the wrong reasons.  If you are forcing a students  hands together to bind what are you imparting?  You are telling a student first of all that the goal is to get deeper, faster.  ”I am not in the posture fully unless I am binding.”  This creates a goal oriented practice and thus frustration as the student is now a bit less satisfied without the assist to get them where they cannot yet go.   At some point you WILL injury someone by doing this.  Unless you have x-ray vision for anatomy, you have no idea what is truly going on in their body.  

Patiently waiting for the process of deepening and opening asana is a must for both teacher and student.  

If you are a student let none of those brief stories scare you.  Let them empower you to practice more attentively and to let teachers know when you are uncomfortable with what they are doing.  Ask yourselves what the intention of your teacher is and if it is something you agree with.  I personally never find myself pushing to %1oo in any asana for several reasons.  It would be easy for me to misjudge what %100 is.  A teacher may decide to assist me and push me beyond where I already am. And finally, if you are practicing and pushing hard you are most likely responding more to the energy of adrenaline release as opposed to endorphin release.    Aggression and excitement vs. happiness and euphoria.  Again I simplify, but hopefully the point comes across.

If you are teaching, truly observe and study your intentions!  Constantly be a student of yoga and rid yourself of the ego.   Try to constantly read, study, and practice the roots of the philosophy as much as you can.  Set a brief intention before class concerning why you are about to teach and what you hope to convey.  Create and environment where your students are comfortable and safe.  Now and then I let them know my intentions!  I want to establish an environment wherein they should feel comfortable asking any question, questioning what I am teaching, and giving me feedback so I also can constantly learn.  We are simply teachers.  We are not rock stars or celebrities.  We are not doctors.  We do not always know what is best or have all the answers.   

I believe that what truly separates some teachers from others is the intention.   Knowledge and experience mean little when tag teamed with the wrong intentions.  

Hope this finds everyone well and happy!  Love what you do and do what you love!  

-Love you all.-m

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Adi Shankara was a yogi philosopher and scholar, born approx. 509 B.C., who was responsible for starting the Advaita Vedanta school of yogic thought.  He was an infamously fantastic debater who traveled across India spreading his particular ideas based deeply in the Upanishads and various Vedic texts.  Apparently after his father died he was initiated into a student life of yoga and mastered/memorized the Vedas by the age of 8!  (I  cant even remember what I had for breakfast!)  His works are available and are pretty interesting stuff to crack into!  

I bring him up because he has a fantastic list of “suggestions” for successful Sadhna (daily work or effort to foster change i.e. prayer, asana, pranayama, meditation, mantra), which fall right in line with my previous piece concerning meditating on the seeds we have within us and how we choose to care for them.  Here you go…

1. Viveka- discernment- the process of finding out what is important and what you can get rid of.

2. Vairagya-detachment-becoming “ok” with getting rid of some elements in your life or behavior to foster personal growth.  

3. The 6 Treasures     -tranquility of mind      -poise

                                        -self control                     -burning faith

                                        -patience                          -self surrender

 

*Burning faith is my favorite to ponder on.  This does not mean faith in a higher power necessarily.  It means a faith in yourself!  If you don’t firmly believe you can change and/or get better, you will not get much further!

4. Thirst for liberation.  ”You can get it if you really want it”-Jimmy Cliff  

All of this information is really only useful if you truly want to become the best you that you can be.  There are those that go through life thinking they are the way they are and thats the end of it.  I feel like one element that truly separates us as human from animal is our capacity to view inward and make changes as we see fit.  Is liberation or enlightenment attainable?  Im not sure, but I am doing my best to find out!

Green Thumb for the Soul

“The gentle spring rain permeates the soil of my soul.  A seed that has lain deeply in the earth for many years just smiles.”  -Thich Nhat Hanhdscn14241

 

I have absolutely loved this quote since first reading it and come back to it pretty often.  I am of the mind that within all of us there lies a seed for every reaction and emotion we could have.  We also plant new seeds along the way that we have bought through experience be they positive or negative.  We all have seeds of love, compassion, anger, jealousy, etc.  Through introspection, meditation, and constant observation we can begin to notice how we are caring for these seeds and then hopefully change our behavior to improve our “green thumbs”!  

More often than not, we even define ourselves with our negative quirks and behavioral traits than we do with the positive ones;  ”Oh, Im just an impatient person.” , or “Im just very type A.”.  The beauty of any yogic or meditative practice is that you begin to learn that it is possible to change anything in your life you would like to with the proper care!  I liken this level of awareness to step One of A.A., “I have a problem.”  We all have many things we could change if we chose to, to become happier, healthier, and more effective humans.  The work (sadhna) is observing and deciding which seeds to water more, and which of those you can begin to stop watering.  (Step 2 can only come after step one!)

I find also that looking at behavior this way makes the behavior of others much more understandable.  You can begin to realize that we truly do all have many of the same seeds of behavior, but simply have different gardening skills!

What seeds are you overwatering and which ones need more attention?  What are you ingesting mentally and physically to create a soil for these concepts to grow?  Placing yourself in the best environment is the best preventative medicine.  Surround yourself with the best support system you can to foster the changes you are working on.  It is a hard and emotional task to realize that certain surroundings or people are in fact detrimental to your personal growth.   I have noticed often that as i evolve into what I believe is a better “me” and leave different practices behind, various friends have come and gone and some have even held a grudge.  When I quit drinking and going out so much I had friends that would actually give me a hard time about trying to become healthier.  Its an interesting study that others get as attached to your behavior as you do and find it hard to let you change and grow.  There is certainly a lot to ponder on here.  So put on some gloves and a floppy hat and get your hands dirty!  

Happy 2009!

Just got back to Austin yesterday and am sooo happy to be home!  I flew out to LA on the 23rd to see Hannah and visit with her family for a couple days.  We got there just in time to see the end of the carol singing at her grandparents house that happens every year.  Immediately began gorging on cookies and had some yummy stouts to wash em down with!  Hannah had made gingerbreads in our likeness and they were tasty.  She also had made me a stocking with a silhouette of tree posture on it, then hung it on the fireplace with the others.  Three days of eating and lounging followed!  The weather was nice and even a bit rainy.  Christmas Eve we hung out with lots of family and I ended up playing some jazz standards on drums with her family.  Many of them are into music and her grandfather has a dixieland style jazz band that has been together since 1975!  There is a link to it on my site here.

On the 26th we hopped in the car, drove to El Paso, and spent the evening in our friend Jennie and Andrews Airstream.  Got up nice and early, had coffee and breakfast, and then headed to Hueco Tanks park to rock climb for about 7 or so hours.  The plan was to climb every other day as to not tear up the skin so much.  Lots of Austin friends started to roll in and it was a great first day of climbing.  Had dinner and crashed in my fancy new tent for a super cold evening of restless sleep… mmmm.  The next day we lounged quite a bit, ran errands, watched 3 movies in the Airstream and I cooked dinner, grilled chicken and rosemary n parm cheese potatoes!  Ended up having a bonfire and all our Austin buddies showed up and we passed around the Woodford Reserve bourbon! The second day climbing was a bit warmer and a bit more successful climbing-wise.  After another cold night of sleep in the desert we decided to head into El Paso, get a hotel room, and get the first shower in days!  Sooo good.  Our friend Ellen came in that evening and we all met for dinner at a brewpub in El Paso and had a blast.  Third day of climbing was fun and relaxed.  It was packed with people climbing and gearing up for New Years.  Had dinner with about 30 other climbers at El Rancho Escondido, which we found out the hard way is the home of the $54 margarita pitcher.  Seriously… a $54 pitcher of house margarita.  It ended up being an enormous fiasco and Jennie and Ellen ganged up on the manager to give him whatfor.  As drunken berating only got us %20 off the bill, I cornered him myself, used my Jedi mind tricks (ME:  waves hands mysteriously, “There ARE no margarita pitchers on our bill.”)and we ended up drinking for free!  It was a great start actually to the evening as we were laughing about it all the way back to the park.  

Every year there is a huge bonfire at the Rock Ranch and all the climbers camping out there show up.  To make a long story short here, margaritas, Beast cans, and champagne make for a pretty entertaining evening out in the desert!  Too many hilarious moments to even get into.  We crashed in Ellens trailer and were honored to be her first overnight guests!  The next morning we again packed up and headed to Austin.   It was a nice easy drive in which Hannah at one point came up with her porn name… Tickle Moorwood, based on her first pets name and a derivative of our apartment name.  Much laughter!  I feel like I am leaving a lot out, but all in all it was a blast and we are happy to be home and have a week together!  

Looking forward to 2009 and what it shall bring.  My personal goal is to of course practice and study more yoga, but also to manifest becoming a better business.  Time to take my yoga teaching as a business to a different level I think.  We shall see!  Hope all of you are fantastic and happy new year!  Pictures to follow!

Cookies

Cookies

TheTent

TheTent

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sending Moonshine Roof

Sending Moonshine Roof

 

New Years Eve Bonfire

New Years Eve Bonfire

 

 

 

 

Saying Goodbye on New Years Day

Saying Goodbye on New Years Day

Dating Oneself?

So in the car yesterday on the way to Rogers Park in Belton TX we were chatting it up.  I was driving and Ellen, Caroline, and dog Bean were carpooling to go climbing for the day in the bitter bitter cold!  It turned out to be a bit shorter day than usual due to it being just too darn cold.  On the way back I mentioned a concept that I am a fan of and everyone was into it including Bean and I was told to mention it here…

This concept basically stems from a phrase I came up with… Dating Yourself!  This has nothing to do with the touching of oneself, although it may be a related item for some. Ahem. Anyways.  It also has nada to do with dating yourself as in, “I loved the band Twisted Sister back in the day.”  Ahem… Anyways again…

Basically I believe that you should at least once a week totally treat yourself right, or even every day!  Like my boy Agent Dale Cooper says, “Everyday, once a day, give yourself a little present.  Dont plan it, dont wait for it, just let it happen.”  (enter: two cups of hot black coffee and some cherry pie) However, my philosophy is a bit different.  I feel that one (1), you cannot truly learn to “hook up” another human being properly if you can’t do it for yourself first.  This can be said for another formentioned topic that we need not go into here, again.   Two; I feel like we dont treat ourselves with the respect and awe that we should!  Especially in a profession like teaching where all of your mental and physical energy is directed outward, we need to refuel and re-energize!  I feel like I personally do not get burnt out as long as I keep refilling the vessel that I am constantly pouring outwards from.

Tips on dating yourself:

1.Go Overboard.  Go big!  Take yourself to that favorite expensive restaurant and hook it up!   Dont worry about time, money, etc.  Treat it like a date with a significant other and impress yourself! 

2.Spa Time.  On a night alone trap yourself in the bathroom.  Hot bath with salts, music, glass of wine, and possibly a favorite book you have read already many times!  I personally do this pretty often and its soooo good.

3. No Fear.  Go out and do your favorite things that you normally reserve for doing with another.  Get over fear of eating alone, movie alone, or favorite outdoor activity alone.  

Nobody can ever truly know what you want at any given moment as well as yourself.  Take advantage of knowing who you are and what you want and hook yourself up!  Its not selfish!  It will only make you happier and healthier which can only effect your local environment in a positive manner!   Life is good, revel in it.  Roll in it like a dog in a pile of leaves!  

Livin Large with Home Spa Treatment!

Livin Large with Home Spa Treatment!

 
Got up early and had some incredibly yummy coffee.  (my coffee can be eaten with chopstix)  Taught my Sunday AM Ashtanga class which is always a great one!  After coming home and doing what I can describe best as “putsing around” for a bit ( a skill I learned from my pops), I headed back out to have some brunch at Hyde Park Grill!  From Hyde Park to watch a bit of The NFL and see the Buffalo Bills lose… again, and take my Fantasy Football dreams with them.  ”Buffalo!”, he yells to the sky shaking a fist.  Then received a call to go climbing again, this time out at McKinney Falls Park.  Enjoyed some beautiful weather with friends, a dog named Bean, and a fair amount of salamanders, hawks, daddy long legs, and cardinals.   Made me a bit of dinner and then drew me a bath with my favorite tension/muscle relaxing cocktail which is as follows and I highly recommend to all …

 

Dr. Singhas Mustard Bath combined with Eucalyptus bath salts both of which can be found at Central Market among other places Im sure.  Trust me, try a super hot bath and hot box in your bathroom.  You will want a bed soon after!

About to talk to wifey for a bit, who spent her weekend climbing and camping at Joshua Tree!  Then end the night re-reading The Silmarillion for the many hundredth time.  I have a Tolkien problem!

Sunday Climbin

Sunday Climbin

 
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Oh, the decisions we make!

So this piece constitutes the last of the yoga related writings that I have had in the bank.  Time to get crackin on more new material!  Enjoy!

 

 

About five years ago my brother was visiting me in Washington DC.  He lives in Japan and we get to see each other only once or twice a year.  When we do get to see each other we often have to catch up on almost a years worth of information over the course of a few days.  There was a conversation that we had on this occasion that I remember quite clearly and have thought about many times.  A conversation that I have since found echoed in the experience of both my students and some of the very ancient Vedic texts!  A conversation about choices.

We were having a family dinner at a favorite Tex-Mex restaurant in DC and catching up a bit.  As we began to order, my brother was somewhat astonished to hear me order an entirely vegetarian option from the menu.  As a side note, I grew up and ate mostly steak, potatoes, chips and salsa, and little else.  I hated veggies and have always loved a big juicy steak.  My being mainly vegetarian came as a huge shock to him as it was something that just hadn’t come up before.  I remember him asking, “You don’t eat steak anymore?  How can you not eat steak?  It was your favorite!  It’s my favorite!”.  I answered by stating that  I was practicing Ashtanga every morning six days a week.  If I ate steak, it felt like I was practicing with a brick in my stomach in the morning.  We all know the practice is hard enough without a meat brick in the stomach!  It was his next comment that has been the inspiration of this piece.  Perplexed, he looked at me and said, “Well why the heck would you do a practice (yoga) that makes you so sensitive that you give up something you love?”  Wow.  I have to admit, the logic of his question stopped me for a moment.  I hadn’t really thought about it from that direction.  I was beginning to make conscious and unconscious choices that revolved around my practice.  Even shedding things I loved!

I come back to this experience due to a recent rereading of both the Uppanishads and the Bhagavad Gita.  There is a sanskrit term found in these texts that I think is a brilliant concept, Prajnaparadha.  This term is commonly translated as a mistake or improper use of the intellect (buddhi)–having just enough knowledge to make a conscious or unconscious poor decision!  For example, knowing the effects of smoking but still deciding to smoke; driving without a seatbelt because accidents happen to other people; eating all those yummy hot peppers that you know will give you indigestion; drinking that first, second, and maybe third martini!  In the practice of Ayurveda, Prajnaparadha is seen as one of the three causes of disease in the mental, physical, and spiritual bodies.  The good news is that this imbalance is correctable with self observation and better decision making.  In my yoga practice I was becoming aware of things in my life that I could change and thus feel better as a result.  The notion that we, as yogis, can make the powerful choice to give up even the things we enjoy is stunning to me.  It is a concept very much at odds with a world caught up in the practice of indulgence, a world that often prizes quantity over quality and appearances over substance.

As our yoga practice becomes more and more dear to us we begin to make  decisions.  Only with the fire of knowledge (jnana agni) can we begin to burn off the things in our lives we no longer need.  In the Gita wisdom is called the “greatest purifier on earth.”   In asking any of my students who have been practicing for a few years, I find that they have all changed parts of their behavior due to their practice and are happier and healthier for it!  With practice and observance comes this wisdom.  With the heat and movement of the Ashtanga system we multiply this purification process, building tapas (physical and/or spiritual heat) and burning off that which we don’t need.   

What in you life resembles prajnaparadha?  What in your life have you already changed?  Endear yourself to the the work of the practice and enjoy observing the changes you’ve made over time!  

 

Matt’s Disclaimer:  By no means do I mean to tell anyone to go veg or not drink.  These are only meant as examples from my own personal experience!  Seatbelts, though…

 

 

Mark n Akiko, Hannah n Matt.

Mark n Akiko, Hannah n Matt.

Ahhhh, Thailand.

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Matt Borer

  Just reminiscing on practicing in Koha Samet, Thailand.  The Tsunami that devastated the area occurred only days after I left and I always wonder about the state of those beaches and the great locals and tourists I met there.  Wishing the best for the Thai government and its people and hoping to someday return to enjoy one of the most beautiful places and peoples on Earth.  Really want to get back there and get my hands on some of the incredible rock climbing there in the Western islands.  

Took a lot of Thai massage there and picked up a bit more at the Old Medicine Hospital in Chiang Mai.  We spent three days on elephants trekking through rain forest and sleeping in villages with less than 20 residents.  Unbelievable stuff.  Of course my camera died the morning we got on the elephants… I think it was jammed full of sand!  Cant wait to get back and see Laos, Vietnam and Cambodia as well.  So many places to go!  

Next international travel plans?  World Cup soccer in South Africa/climbing trip (The Rocklands).  Taking a posse there in 2010!  You in?

Ahimsa

Here is a little something I wrote a while ago…

 

Ahimsa! 

In Sanskrit there is a term…Ahimsa…which translated means non-harming.  A beautiful concept for a word!  I don’t know of many other words that symbolize this concept.  There are millions of words for the opposite though…destroy, harm, hurt, wreck,  ruin, break, crush, beat, smash, etc.  Kind of an odd phenomenon don’t you think?  There are plenty of words that mean to care for something.  However, that is a very different concept from that of non-harming…  For example ,the statement, “I will care for this flower.”, is quite different from “I will not harm this flower.”  To not harm seems to imply a choice to leave something in a natural and positive state as opposed to changing/harming it or choosing to make it your responsibility to care for it.   Non-harming can range from the macro to the micro, the physical to the mental or spiritual, and from the external to the internal.  Not only to not harm the world around you, but often first and foremost to not harm the world within you.  Using every breath of everyday as your workspace to get rid of negativity we easily fall pray to.  “I am not good enough.””I will never be like that.”; “This is just the way I am.”  Its not…that is just the way you WERE!  Make every breath a more positive and productive place to be for YOU.  Only from a center of strength and love can you then radiate the same to those around you without harming the self!  Hope this finds everyone having a beautiful day.  Ahimsa for all my people!   

 

As a side note, Ahimsa is in fact the first concept mentioned in the Ashtanga, or 8 limbed path in the Yoga Sutras.  It is the first of the Yamas; 8 ways in which to deal with our environment.  Although each step becomes a grander step.  One can really not move to the next without dealing with the first, which leads to the conclusion of the immense import of beginning your practice with this simple concept!

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